Good morning all!
It's been a while since I've been here but this time for all the right reasons! My disability payments started in October and in January I got my back disability payment. With it, I was able to go out and get things to enable me to do the things I want to at home. Because of the fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue and pain syndromes, I tend to spend a lot of time at home. So, I draw and write, think of ways to organize our home and slowly actually do these things!
One of the best things I was finally able to do was to go out and buy a car! We've had to go without one for almost 5 years, having to ask for rides no matter where we had to go and depend on everyone for almost every aspect of our lives. Now we can be almost independant and it feels so good!
Another thing to bless our world is my oldest son has moved home to Oklahoma after an absence of 2 and 1/2 years. It's been a little crazy getting used to a full house again, but I'd rather have my son here than not.
I guess I'm saying if you think positively, keep positive thoughts ever running in your mind, and push out the negativity from your mind and lives, things will work out! You've got to take every positive thing that happens in your world, no matter how small, as a step forward!
I see blogs on here blaming the government, the illnesses people have, the families you have and even pot shots at people who are in the same situation....putting the reason why you haven't gotten help on everyone and everything but who is truly the reason.
You've got to do everything you can, call and write everyone you can, ASK for help from places that may not seem the 'right' place to go and always have faith things will work out. I'm not saying this venture will be an easy one...you will have to be humble and accept the help that IS out there. You can't simply put ONE letter up on one site and leave it at that. Push for your life...don't let things bring you down for long...think of your families and how your actions affect them and how positive they will feel about their lives.
I've had problems since I was a child, gone thru things no one should go thru, and this last life venture has gone on since 1997. I lapsed into self loathing, self hatred, and blame on the world. One day I realized I had to look deep inside and see what really was at the core of my problems...and found it was ME. The common denominator was ME! If I wanted my life to change, I was the one who had to make the effort to change...I could only use my past experiences for so long as excuses. I'm not saying my life changed overnite, but it did change!
I started doing for me!! Your children, your husband/wife/boyfriend/girlfriend, your friends can only stand by you and support you. IF you're not happy or content with who you are, how can they be? I have had to take the illnesses thrust upon me as a good thing...they taught me to relax, quit pushing so hard on myself, and never give up. Those diseases taught me how to live life at a less than perfect level and take the steps back and make them into baby steps forward...ever forward.
So, is my life perfect? Hell no! Am I rich in financial ways? No. Do I have love in my life? Lord yes. I am rich in ways that truly matter and you too can be that way too. Never give up...every experience we go thru in life has positive lessons to be learned. Sometimes we have to look extremely hard for them, but they are there!! So, in closing I can only say this. Positive thinking DOES work. Pushing the negative out of your life WILL change your world...even if those people are friends or family. You have to do for YOU!! Just KEEP the FAITH and blessings will be put upon you.
